Baby steps

I came across this e-card the other day. It reminded me of something I'm always telling my running buddies, as long as we are moving forward, who cares how slow or fast we go?  Of course, I know this is always the case with running. You can't rush progress when it comes to running. It takes time, patience, perseverance, dedication and discipline for you to see some progress. It may take you 6 months to train for a sub 2hr half marathon. To gain the speed and stay injury free that's approximately how long it needs to take. These things just don't happen overnight!  However, we are faithful to our runs, we are dedicated, we are focused, we are believers and at the end of the day, we make it happen.

In life, I tend to be much more black and white. Well, at least until 3 months ago where I started dealing with every shade of gray there is. It is amazing how running has helped me deal with Evans. I find that if I apply the same principles I apply to running, I can handle it. There really is not much planning you can do around Evans, but we stay faithful through Ric's treatments, we are dedicated, focused and believe that one day we will get to remission.  Hopefully, that day is not too far away, but a small step forward is a step in the right direction.

It is difficult to stay in that mindset when Evans constantly reminds us that we will have to walk backwards as well. To Evans I say this...."this girl doesn't know how to move backwards, I go forward and I am trying my hardest to move my whole crew forward,  so you can take your backwards and shove it up your evil antibodies' ass!"

Ric had his chemo this past Monday....so far, so good and no hives or any other reactions.  This week we are at a whopping 130,000 platelets! His white blood cells are still behaving like cranky, whining teenagers, but what are we gonna do? His neutrophils are the crankiest of them all, at 395, which means he basically has no "soldiers" to fight any infection. He feels perfectly fine, though! Yesterday, his pediatrician called to see how he was doing and I told her "I am waiting for the other shoe to drop" and she said "Well, you should be enjoying these peaceful days, that way when the rollercoaster comes down again you can look back and say...hey, I had a few good days and hold on to that strength." That woman is amazing! She's totally right! We have enjoyed almost "normal" days this week. Ric graduated from the 8th grade, his brother William graduated from 5th grade. It's been a week of celebration! I am quietly celebrating that Ric has been feeling good and has had no reaction, so far. 

 This week I feel there has been some progress and we are moving somewhat in the right direction. Baby steps, but who gives a crap? It's the right direction and that's where our focus needs to be.



PS....I have added a new state of alert when it comes to Evans.....RED WEDDING! Hopefully, we will never have to use it.