Awkward moments

Every once in a while Ric asks if he ever has to do chemo again. Today, he asked again. My reply is usually the same "if we have to, we have to. It helped last time, right?" To which he always replies "right". 

It is still a little unreal to me that we have these conversations. It breaks my heart a bit every time he asks. But, I am sure it breaks his more. Keeping a brave face is not easy. I often wonder, if it will ever get easier.

Thank God for distractions and little daily victories, which are no longer little, but huge.